A deep dark

i miss relationship. i get lost in reading books and sucked into different tv programs and in watching people and in dreaming of a future that is bright like my past... but why? because im lonely. it grips me and i feel the pain physically of being alone. still grieving much loss, i dont know how to move forward, for my language skills are less than "enough" and im left feeling hollow. and broken. and im clinging to the hem of the One who walks by... hoping my faith will heal me... but i can't be sure. i need more; i need the Light back so i can wake up in the mornings feeling joy rather than an ache. if this is depression, im already tired. it may win... i need prayer; i hope the groanings of my spirit are enough... for there isn't much else i have to offer right now.

God isn't safe, but he IS good.............